I am solo traveling in the Christmas holidays. It is great being away from home , cleaning my mind. My books are packed, clothes for Christmas dinner are packed. Writing from a train. It is a dark and rainy day. I am watching rain drops hitting the window.
Author: sisyphe
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Read poems on the stage
Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?
I was a member of the literature club at my university. We were organizing poem events every year. We were rehearsing for this event for weeks. Reading poems with a instrument background, with a decoration on the stage based on the poem’s subject. The stage was magical. I became a different person after reading poems in front of almost 100 people, more confident. I accepted my voice, my body, my soul as it is.
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Face the fears
I used to be afraid of falling down from a bike and I had the fear of having accident. I think it is because that we had a car accident,as a family when I was a baby. I had this trauma for many years. But never gave up trying to bike, and going into the traffic.I was squeezing my hand too much while holding the bike,because of that was having wrist pain. I continued to work on this and also got support of a loved one to encourage me to keep doing that. Today I fell down from my bike in the middle of traffic and then stood up and continue, no fear, it was quite normal moment for me.I felt proud of myself , saw the progress i made after those many years. So never give up!
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Overanalyzing and thinking bad weather scenarios for the future
What could you do less of?
I tend to overanalyze the situations that seems to negative to me. I think all means of bad weather scenarios what could go worst. I think that this is the survival side of the brain. I could do that less. In order to cope with this, I do journal a lot, and for each bad weather scenario , I write a realistic more optimistic scenario. A friend of mine recommended to do clean home when I start overanalyzing. How do you cope with this , if you have any advice ,I could use some help.
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Slowing down
Slowing down makes me to see the beauty of everything in life, beauty in the nature, for example, clouds passing by,or the move of the bushes in the wind, and also beauty in people. Everybody has some struggles in their life, respecting that, being kind and compassionate towards each other.
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Monkeys in Sri Lanka
Do you ever see wild animals?
It was my first time, seeing monkeys in the nature in Sri Lanka. They were on the top of trees next to a waterfall and there were many of them. People were taking a bath in the waterfall , literally with soap and everything. Monkeys were watching them with curious face.
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New beginnings
Nowadays every Christmas light i see on my street reminds me new beginnings, the cycle of the life. I like cold weather where we can be at home and luckily under a roof. Having a warm cup of coffee or a soup. Lighting a candle at home, feeling safe and happy. Life is so beautiful. Want to live every minute of it. I am full of hope and gratitude for the new year and what it brings.
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Escaping from solitute
I was thinking about why everyone looking for a romantic partner. Being in a romantic relationship of course is beautiful if it nurtures you , supports you. However, we are not lack if there is no romantic partner in our lives.I want to talk about staying by yourself. I think most people escape from solitude as if it is a problem to be avoid. we fear to face what we want and take responsibility to realize our dreams. responsibility requires effort. My 85 year old neighbor, after living with her spouse 60 years,is now alone after her husband went nursing home. She was so upset about the situation at the beginning, but now I see she started creating a rich individual life, she has a routine. She is knitting beautiful dolls , looking after her house , her plants. I admire her. She has a social life , as she is visiting her husband at nursing home, her neighbors and family members. Even we are with someone right now, unfortunately we can be alone again in the later part of our lives. spouses might pass away, children go to other cities, countries. There is no escape from solitude, let’s face and meet our beautiful authentic ourselves.
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About sick leaves
Today I am feeling low and sick. I have a sore throat and runny nose. I had thought if I am sick enough to take a sick leave. This question popping up in my mind is even problematic. How many of us , working hard all those years, days and when it comes to rest , we feel guilty. This is a big societal problem. We should take sick leaves and rest and nurture ourselves. We did not come to this life to only for work. We have right to rest , and take our time. Just those opinions passing through my mind. Lying on my sofa with a blanket and watching my Christmas tree and cherishing the life I have 🙂 Happy afternoons!
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