Friendships

I always wanted to have deep friendships, not just having fun together but being there for each other. I put high expectations on people I guess. I wanted them to love me as the the same way as I loved them.However, here is the truth, they were not people that I wanted them to be. They were not loving me same way as I love them. I was trying to do everything a friend does, being supportive,  checking in sharing my emotions, fears anxiety, also being cheerful, caring.  But they were not there, and that is okay. I am now facing bitter truth and choosing my place in those friendships. I felt like being taken for granted. I pulled back and I meet people where they are. I do show same amount of care they give me. I also know that is not the end. we did not have that deep relations I have imagined.Even if it is painful,  i accept that. This is a lesson not to put high expectations on people.  Maybe the love that I craved from people , I should give it to myself.  I am on solo coffee date.  Life keeps going no matter what.